I'm 25 years old, have dealt with my weight all my life ...at 16 I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and pcos. Started taking synthroid for my hypothryoidism. My weight continued to sprial in and out of control. I've dealt with eating disorders that some doctors ignored because I was losing weight only to gain it back. Then at my biggest 397 at 21 , I got sick and no one knew what was wrong. My joints hurt, I was sick all the time, had fevers and rashes...in a matter of 8 months to a year was down to 289 pounds ! but felt like I 90. Turns out I had a rarely Juvenile Rhuematoid arthritis...after being put on predisone they knew it for sure because it helped but after being on the medication my weight that was down, went back up. For the last three years we've tried to get me off the predisone but everytime I get down too low..here is a flare which causes me to need more . When I went to my doctor in April I had lost 22 pounds , I was so happy...went I went back last month I had gained 25 ...I was so sad..unhappy and disgusted with myself. My stills (JRA) is finally under control but we cant taper the prednisone down past 10mg which leaves me stuck..so now I am considering weight loss surgery.
I keep track of what I eat through sparkpeople.com, eat the recommended amount of calories ( or try to) and I walk daily, heck as a nanny I am kept on the go with those kids lol. When I went in for my physical my doctor asked me about wls and then after further discussion thought since I can lose weight on my own maybe it's not for me but I'm tired of feeling absolutely disgusted when I do eat, knowing well here is another pound or two coming on ...from my teenage and eating disorder years I still have a problem with food..I eat when my body says eat or your going to get sick.
I have two people I know who have had weight loss surgery successfully but haven't really talked to them and asked how they felt before or after...thats why I'm here.
I'm scared yet I know I want and need too do this. I know I'm tired of working hard only to
and feel
. On the health end , I am actually pretty healthy besides my asthma which barely bothers me, my JRA and the last few times ( in the same month) going to the doctor my bp was slighty elevated lol then again I seen the scale before they took my bp which aggrevated me a great deal.
I want to lose weight on my own and I'm working at it but I keep asking myself how long do I give myself before my body does get tired of all this weight and I start feeling the ill effects...do I wait and keep trying ...
I just don't know.
I'm hoping by joining here and meeting some of you wonderful people, hearing your stories may inspire me to really decide what is best for me.
I look forward to getting to know you all :-) .
Thank you .
I'm new... 
So long as you are putting your best foot forward, then, 
KB
Denise
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