Entries for June 19, 2009

Dear Weaker Self,


a battle wages within, I want to win, not you
I shall triumph and take control. you won a couple battles today, I'll surely admit. I've been listening and following your advice for a couple years now and look how I am suffering for it now. you WILL NOT win, I will slowly get stronger and lock you into a dark place of nonexsistance and throw away the key.
You have torn me down, made me believe I couldn't do it, make me feel like food was my only...

Wow you have gone thru a lot but if you have to do it again would you go thru it all over again?
Thank you for really nice support message i know we can do it dispite what other people said this is our body and our health is everything ok with you now?
Yes i know somebody told me that too this is an easy way out for me to have this surgery my husband was not happy when he heard that he said they dont understand and they dont know what your health is going thru this was my last result...

I BEEN HOME FROM MY SUREGERY A WEEK AGO STILL HURTING A LITTLE BUT NOT AS BAD LIKE WHEN I JUST GOT HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL I HAD MY 1ST OPS YESTERDAY AND MY SURGEON TOLD ME I AM HEALING VERYY WILL AND I CAN START EATING HIGH IN PROTEIN FOOD NOW LIKE EGGS AND OTHER SOFT FOOD I AM SCARED TO START EATING THIS MORNING I SHOULD STRY TO EAT EGGS BUT I AM SCARED SO I DECIDE JUST TO DRINK MY LIQUID PROTEIN, ITS BEEN LONG JOURNEY I JUST DONT WANT TO DO ANYTHING THAT WILL HURT ME, YESTERDAY I WAS WEIGH 250...