Entries for August 2009

So many good hearted ppl say " just don't let this not work like so-in-so" and " I hope you don't wast this like ....." I feel like this is sooooo neg! I know they are really trying to encourage me but I don't feel it. It's like they are waiting to use me as a so-in-so bad example? Like I am under the microscope of their scruitiny? Do I have permission to scruitinize their bad habits and give them advice??? It makes me mad. Like I would go through all this just to...

Felt strange all day, like I was really, really hungry. A grinding kind of hunger pang. I ate yogurt for breakfast with some blueberries...an hour later felt like I was starving. Ate some tuna and white beans about 10:30...an hour and a half before my normal lunch. Tummy quieted for awhile then it started again! Had some edamame and that did it. Tummy got happy. I suppose this is what is called listening to your pouch. It was yelling "feed me"!
Seared tuna steak and some...

8 weeks in a few days and I'm becoming hopefull. The gagging phase is just about gone. Food is going down in larger quantities and the variety is improving. I still can not abide the protein drinks and view them as medicine...when I drink them, which isn't often. I am concentrating on getting in all my water...and protein choices in my food. I probably am up to 35-40 grams of protein daily. Taking my vitamins religiously.

Still have pulling under the skin. A little uncomfortable,...

Had cottage cheese for breakfast with two strawberries and 10 blueberries, cinnamon and splenda. Water exercises for an hour (can't call it water aerobics as I mostly float around kicking my legs and throwing back an occasional volleyball to the players at the other end of the pool.
Lunch was white beans & tuna, and later a snack! A SNACK! I hardly ever can eat a snack. I had edamame. THAT I am truly excited about. When hubby goes for popcorn I can eat edamame. Light, salty, full of...

Major Wake Up Call


As I sat waiting to have my eco cardio gram and stress test it hit OMG I have hit rock bottom!!! Here I am having to have someone look at my heart because I have abused myself so bad that now I have to have a stress test and eco cardio gram so I can have surgery to get rid of all of this weight!!! As I sat there trying to read my book so I can get my mind off of this, they kept bringing elderly people in there and it made me feel even worse. I said to myself...