Entries for January 2010

So here it is nearly Feb and I'm just working and trying to figure out what a normal life is for me now. Before it was easy... I had no life.. I lived with a friend taking care of her kids.. no real job .. no income.. nothing.. just a life in this virtual world called online. But now I have a real paying job... one that made me enough to purchase my first laptop I have spent the past 2 days getting all the things I wanted installed on it and a virus scanner on it. The games I enjoy playing an...

OK yesterday was a great day as far as my choices and getting back to a happy pouch. Nothing much else but the regular stress of work. Went to dinner at the in-laws and had some much needed family time. So all in all yesterday was a great day!



PS why is when you aren't qulified for a job you can train the person that is? God forbid I would be 100% positive in a blog...

Love you for reading this!

I was eating dinner last night with my Daughter and husband which went along very well. However, we started to talk about her father and his current divorce. I am sitting there listening to things that I would like to snidley comment on but I kept my mouth shut. Which is a miracle unto itself! When all the sudden it hit, I excused myself and went down stairs and , my whole dinner. I have not done this in the 2 1/2 years since my surgery. I didn't think I could . Did not feel well...

OK I posted a similar blog to this earlier but it disappeared.....
So what a shitty day! I didn't get the job that I thought "I had in the bag". I got on the scale today after thinking I had done so well getting back to the tracks if not on track and gained 4 pounds.

Oh boy... all I want to do now is eat. Drink water, drink water... that is all I keep telling my self.
Amanda is coming out for dinner I pray that I don't do or say anthing wrong/to piss...

Chugged along over the weekend. Not perfect but much better than what I was doing to my poor little pouch. Really working on the protien. I will have to do some of the grocery shopping this week to make sure my protien needs can be met a little easier. It really does cut down on your appetite during the day. Need to work on my sweet need at bed time. I have eaten so much better in fact, I haven't had any sick to my stomach feelings or dumping issues in a week!! Wahoo. I can't throw up no...