So I come home Friday from my 2 month follow up with my nut and find out I need to add 20 more grams of protein a day and that my iron is low, but other than those 2 small things I'm doing great. Everyone was so happy with my weight loss and said it just showed in my face how happy I was. I was finally coming to terms with the fact that my boyfriend was gone and that it was better that he had done it now while I was still strong from the surgery and not a year down the road when it would be easier to slip into old bad habits. I felt great and when I finally turned in for the night my cell phone rang. It was a friend of mine telling me that my boyfriend Drayke was online and in our usual voice chat.

You could have knocked me over with a feather. Now just to show you that God has a great sense of humor in my life... my internet connection was down... everyone thought someone else paid the bill. So now he's online and I can't even talk to him. I tried connecting to Teamspeak... our usual chat service.. and it didn't connect. My friend Paul who had called me did so from his pc using Skype... he told Drayke to download that and he could add him to the call. I tried again and voila... it connected. I think I was in such a state of shock that I couldn't believe I wasn't dreaming and he was really there talking to me. He told me that he had been fired for a week for arguing with his boss, but they called him back and all is well now. He was homeless for a bit, but now was living with a friend from work and had net access again. We ended up talking til 430 in the morning... we used to always see the sun come up together and I joked that it was the latest I had stayed up in a long time... he said it was the same with him.

Saturday we spent alot of the day talking about us. I told him that I truly thought he had walked away from me, but how happy I was that I was wrong. He asked about my surgery and how I was doing and I told him how great I felt and that after living 5 years in self-imposed exile from the world I was not going to chain myself to the pc again. We both feel that we can work together to get past this. He told me his feelings haven't changed for me and that I was never far from his thoughts.

I know that lots of people would tell me I'm crazy (one friend actually used the word insane ) to even be talking to him again, but he makes me happy and I haven't had nearly enough of that in my life. I told him that I have started a huge journey and I'm thrilled with where it's taking me. I still love him and I still could see myself with him further down the road, but I know that I'm not going back to my old life.

I guess time will tell if we will end up together further down the road, but for now... I'm smiling again.