I don't know if anyone reads these, but as I've learned sometimes just writing something down helps me deal with it.
A week before I was scheduled to go into the hospital for my WLS my online boyfriend of 3 years went missing. We met in an online game called Yohoho Puzzle Pirates. We clicked instantly and spent all of our online time together. I never hid anything about myself to him, not my size/weight or my past and he was as open and honest with me. As time went on we moved around...