anxiety monster repellant
Posted 05-17-2009 at 10:09 PM by gradualwisd0m
My surgery is scheduled for one month from today. Believe me, I am PSYCHED.
I'm also anxious as ever.
I have generalized anxiety disorder. I have been taking medication for this since early 2006 (Lexapro, 10mg a day). It helps A LOT but I still struggle with episodes of dread, fear, and the sick-to-my-stomach feeling. I have been seeing a therapist since early 2007 and I have learned a lot about my triggers and personal things I need to work on. My biggest problem is when I get anxious, my stomach/intestines seem to clinch up and I have this overwhelming feeling as if I'm going to throw up. It's extremely rare that I get so worked up that I actually DO throw up.
I am scheduling a few appointments to talk with my therapist about these HUGE changes I'm facing but how do you deal with it? I mean, just how do you handle the immense emotional roller coaster? How do you deal with pre-surgery jitters?
I'm a big-picture person so I get overwhelmed REALLY easy.
I do feel quite supported by my husband, a few siblings, my parents, and also when I come onto the message boards. I was thrown into an episode earlier today when my mother-in-law mentioned that she heard my company laid off 6 to 8 people at the end of last week (I took sick days Thursday and Friday). I have been laid off twice from different jobs over the past 2 years and it was a horrible time for me. I found out I wasn't one of those that was laid off but it still really made me freak out. I really hate hearing about all of the lay offs, especially when they were other divisions but when it came to my company I feel devastated as we're a pretty close knit company.
When my husband got home I right away told him I need to talk to him. I used to hold it in and wait until some mundane thing made the floodgates burst open. I was really wound up about the work thing and about getting ready for surgery. I think I'm scared that, over the next week and a half I might go hard-core 'Last Supper' and eat all sorts of stuff. Tonight we went out to eat but went to the Mongolian Grill in town (woohoo coupon) and I brought at least 2/3 of my bowl home with me and it was all veggies, some chicken, and tofu. In the future that bowl may last a whole dang week - or more!
I'm also anxious as ever.
I have generalized anxiety disorder. I have been taking medication for this since early 2006 (Lexapro, 10mg a day). It helps A LOT but I still struggle with episodes of dread, fear, and the sick-to-my-stomach feeling. I have been seeing a therapist since early 2007 and I have learned a lot about my triggers and personal things I need to work on. My biggest problem is when I get anxious, my stomach/intestines seem to clinch up and I have this overwhelming feeling as if I'm going to throw up. It's extremely rare that I get so worked up that I actually DO throw up.
I am scheduling a few appointments to talk with my therapist about these HUGE changes I'm facing but how do you deal with it? I mean, just how do you handle the immense emotional roller coaster? How do you deal with pre-surgery jitters?
I'm a big-picture person so I get overwhelmed REALLY easy.
I do feel quite supported by my husband, a few siblings, my parents, and also when I come onto the message boards. I was thrown into an episode earlier today when my mother-in-law mentioned that she heard my company laid off 6 to 8 people at the end of last week (I took sick days Thursday and Friday). I have been laid off twice from different jobs over the past 2 years and it was a horrible time for me. I found out I wasn't one of those that was laid off but it still really made me freak out. I really hate hearing about all of the lay offs, especially when they were other divisions but when it came to my company I feel devastated as we're a pretty close knit company.
When my husband got home I right away told him I need to talk to him. I used to hold it in and wait until some mundane thing made the floodgates burst open. I was really wound up about the work thing and about getting ready for surgery. I think I'm scared that, over the next week and a half I might go hard-core 'Last Supper' and eat all sorts of stuff. Tonight we went out to eat but went to the Mongolian Grill in town (woohoo coupon) and I brought at least 2/3 of my bowl home with me and it was all veggies, some chicken, and tofu. In the future that bowl may last a whole dang week - or more!
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