well here i am nearly six months on after my rny and although ive had my moments i wouldnt change a thing, its such a pleasure to get up and put on clothes that i actually like and look good its been so many years since i could do that. my problem with food started early i was abused as a child by my mums brother and this started my unhealthy relationship with food, i ate when i was sad happy for reward for any reason at all it was the only thing which gave me pleasure and was my comfort. i have started a diary from the begining of this journey and even though im in my fifties i hadnt dealt with many issues but have started to now im more confident, i wish id done this years ago and to find a site like this where even though we dont know each other you are still there supporting and cheering me on which helps to open up and let it all out thanks for that and understanding,luv jeannie x