OK I posted a similar blog to this earlier but it disappeared.....
So what a shitty day! I didn't get the job that I thought "I had in the bag". I got on the scale today after thinking I had done so well getting back to the tracks if not on track and gained 4 pounds.

Oh boy... all I want to do now is eat. Drink water, drink water... that is all I keep telling my self.
Amanda is coming out for dinner I pray that I don't do or say anthing wrong/to piss her off cause that would send me over the edge. Delaney is too busy with midterms to come over and talk things out. At least I am trying!
Why is there so much bull crap in my life. I think it's because I let it in. Need to check that out as it is a stressor that makes me eat. I hate to be unsettled, I can't wait for anything and I get all upset when I have to. I like immediate fixes, I am sure that comes from living in the immediate world we live in.
I need to remember anything worth having is worth waiting for. Sometimes things need to "ferment" before they are good for you in your situation.
This blog is for me right? I don't care that anyone reads it, but I am just kinda rambling and getting my thoughts and feelings out there and off my chest. That is what the blogs are for right? I haven't really ever done a blog before so I am not sure.
I hope anyone that reads this is having the best day ever, I'll take all the crap for all of us today, but tomorrow it's your turn... JK!