11 weeks through my first pregnancy today. Great feeling, but dang it I miss my energy!!! I haven't done anything strenuous in weeks but am so wiped I feel like I just got done running a marathon.

I am still in denial on the whole thing though. I mean - me - the one who couldn't get a regualr period because of severe PCOS, was told that I would need infertility when I was ready - pregnant quickly on the all-natural method. Not only did this surgery give me so much back in my life, but it gave me the one thing I was afraid I would not get to enjoy without suffering years of heartache trying, if I was even successful at all. Makes me know deep down how proud I am of myself for making the tough decision and carrying it through to fruition.

What I am more proud of is that I am still doing well. I have my little belly growing, but I am only at 161.6 this morning. Very healthy rate of weight gain (only 2.5 lbs since finding out) even though I feel like I never stop eating now. Never thought I would have to eat 5-6 times a day to get everything I need in. Just goes against everything I was re-trained to. Kind of nice having the "free pass" though LOL Still eat all the right things, just have to eat them more often! Bad thing is I am craving cookies bad. I mean B-A-D! I went shopping and was able to pass up the Godiva chocolate shop, amongst other delectable options there too, but wouldn't you know it - saw a Mrs. Fields and said heck with it. I indulged in a chocolate chip walnut cookie and I tell you it was worth the $1.99 spent. I know I can't have them often - but I am not going to fight every craving every time. I tell you that was a darn good warm cookie. Ok - I need to stop thinking about it or I know my ass (and yes I am one) will drive 20 miles for another one LOL

Well, everyone have a wonderful weekend. Time for me to escape my shackles - even if only for two days.