How do I get started?
Posted 02-11-2011 at 11:07 AM by Rondakay
How do I get started?
So here I am thinking how do I get started my mind has been set a certain way for so long it is hard to know where to start. I might need to look back to see how I got this mind set in the first place. I know one thing is when I was younger and I was so skinny my family told me I always needed to clean my plate and it seemed to be the one thing I could do right and made my mom proud funny when I got older and was gaining so much the clean plate was bad and she was not proud any more she was embarrassed by me. I know as I was getting fat and that is what I was getting FAT. Let’s not mix the words it is what it is. I used to tell myself oh I better eat oh I might get sick or If I do not eat soon I do not know when I will eat again even though I might know I will eat in a hour or so. My favorite one was I am going to a party and I do not want to eat a lot there so I will eat now so I will not look like a pig. Then when I got there I still acted like a pig what a mind trick I did on myself.
FOOD was all I ever thought off as soon as I woke up till I went to sleep. I wanted to know when then the next meal was and at times I still do that so I know I need to break that strong hold. In Between of the meals I was thinking of snacks and during the snacks I was thinking of the meals. I ate when I was happy, sad, bored whenever and what ever and ate just about anything and everything. My life revolved around food. It was my drug of choice and I was addicted big time!!!
Now here I am and have made this huge life change and I sometimes feel myself creeping back in to that way and I am scared very scared. I do not want to be like that again. So now I have to work on how to get my mind set changed to a different way of thinking. That is where the work needs to start .
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