Gee went by so quickly. Seems like ages ago I was worrying and fretting. Funny I am now a size 10 but I have the same issues with my apperance I had when I was 275? I don't like my belly fat and now I am just saggy? But I am sooooo much healthier! and I can run soooooo much easier. If you would have ask me a year ago, I would have thought my apperance would have been the thing I thought I would feel best about but I never realized how GOOD it feels being lighter! I physically feel so much better. I never thought that would happen. I never realized how bad I felt, I guess. People are starting to get used to the new me, eventhough I still get comments like..."your looking anorexic" (Gee....a 175lb anorexic...that's new) and "your looking old" (thanks......you look great too! Is that a gray hair I see ) I really don't care. I am the best me I can be and I feel a lot better. That is all that matters!
I do worry a little about weight gain. I feel like I eat all day. Pre surg, I was used to eating nothing (or so I thought) all day and never being able to loose weight. Now I eat breakfast and snack and lunch and a protein bar for mid afternoon snack ......gosh I east like every 2-4 hours. I am not gaining weight so I think it is ok? It is like the dietian always told me to eat but I didn't know how to eat "little" meals all day, I knew how to eat healthy just not little. I just am worried that this joy I am feeling is going to be snatched out from under me.... Like it is too good to be true. Like my body is going to revolt and go back to it's fat storing mode and I will be right back where I started. I DON"T want to go back there!!! Life is too good here. I worry if restrict my calories then my metabolism will reset again and I will not be able to eat. I like eating and if I can and don't gain weight I am ok??? Right??? Why does eating cause me so much anxiety. I just want to be like those ppl who just eat and don't worry about it. But I have to resign to the fact that I will always be plaqued by food, I guess. Any wise guidance about my food anxiety would be welcomed. Help me keep in the century club!!!