stylindi

What is it about kids? Can she not see the absoloute panic in my face? Can she not comprehend "you dont have time for anything else but what i tell you to do?" She is quite brilliant..i am quite frazzled. No concept of time...at 7. Just stop being 7, i actually said that this morning, to which she replied "I CAN't". Shes late for school, im late for school...i just had to take pause.
On a lighter note. She has growing pains..big time. Shes in uber stretch mode. In line...

I tried to edit on preveiw and the whole sorrdid thing is gone. I just spent an hour pouring my heart oout.. and its gone.
Just goes to show you how circumstances screw me over every stinkin time. Im such a fool. Im dirty. There is still no hope. I was such a fool to dream.

( PMS..oh boy was this day a bad one..im sure ill revisit it again in approx 20 days again...i wish i could get my hormornes tested so i could avoid such days)

That was what that was yesterday. Pms. Dammit. I hate that day every month. I know better than to get behind the wheel of a car on those days. Its only ever ONE REALLY bad day a month. I either bawl , over react or feel violent. "That mailman is walking on my street! How dare He. " Then i stave off the urge to dive on him off the porch, Jimmy Superfly Snooka style. Seems to me that doctors and Oprah, are starting to take seriously the issue SOME women have with PMS. Some doctors apparently...

I realized last night that the front quarter pannel of my gut no longer lays on the bed beside me. It has been there my entire life. I find it so odd the gambet of emotion that realization produced. My hand has rested on that "pillow" while i slept for the last 30 years i can recall. Im missing something. I was always giddy when i imagined being thinner... "and this will happen and ill look like this..and ill be able to do that.." Never once did i imagine the apprehension of...

OK its mbirfday. 37. Im really loving getting older and for once , what im saying is NOT dripping in sarcasm.
I went shopping yesterday and bought another pair of jeans and two shirts. Things fit strangly ..some styles fit smaller than others..we like those ones, but hey, ill wear the same size as before without feeling badly as long as it looks good. I do however feel that some designers need their heads read. Just for kicks i tried on one of those suck you in sausage covers for your...