Big collective ((((((((HUGS)))))))
Sometimes, stuff just overflows from our brains out of our ears.
Kenya, you just had a major change in life, and a new job is a big challenge for anyone, no matter how wonderful the job may be. (Keep in mind, there are a number who end up with depression after getting promoted to a job they actually wanted and enjoy!) Such is life. If you're on antidepressants, during/after a big life change is not the best of timings to be weaning. Best to wait until a bit later when things have settled into a routine.
Your brains are still dealing with the major major change of your body image, and the explosive increase with your physical abilities. It's enough to send the strongest of strongest hearts looking for a place to hibernate.