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05-01-2008, 06:18 AM
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Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: Oklahoma City, Okla USA
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165 lb Weight Loss:
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31.6142011834 BMI Current:
29.1183431953 BMI Goal:
Weight Loss MethodRoux en Y Gastric Bypass
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Today is my birthday..not surgi-birthday but my real birthday..my surgi-b/day is 2 wks more to equal 6 yrs post.
For anyone who has been reading the blog portion of the site, you'll know I've been dealing with some very rough times. I find it hard right now to find anything happy-ness wise. 46, alone, nothing and no one but the kids and myself, 2 dogs and 2 birds.
I'm trying to find an endo-doc who will do the ROSE procedure to create my stoma back to the smaller size. I may end up being the 'guinea pig' for our docs where I work. I don't care. I just want it fixed.
The loss of my girl, my 'other daughter', has put me into a place I seem to be stuck. Deep dark grieving, beyond depression and I've had a lot of good things going on and haven't even enjoyed any of it.
I think about all the things lost to her. All the things she'll never experience. I have hit a spot I feel like I can't crawl out of. I don't know if I want to crawl out of it. That's the part that I know signals something terribly wrong.
My immune system and counts have gone even lower..2 red blood cells to my name pretty much. Sadness is not good for the immune system...love and happiness was.
Something has got to give and improve here.
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(lowest body weight/size) --BREE
- Strength in body is fleeting, but MY strength is from the LORD whose strength never weakens...
--------------------- open RNY 5/17/2002 -166 lbs(-200 at lowest) 8 years post in May 2010
Open major abdominal surgery 4/6/2010 for internal hernia release, extensive scarring removal & Appendix removal
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05-01-2008, 06:28 AM
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Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Central Virginia
Posts: 2,949
Weight Statistics 4/30/2007 Start Date:
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233 lb Start Weight:
127 lb Current Weight:
125 lb Goal Weight:
106 lb Weight Loss:
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Bree,
I'm so sorry you are so down on your birthday. May you find a ray of sunshine.
Barb
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05-01-2008, 06:30 AM
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(((((((((HUGS))))))) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
Whatever there is, YOU are alive.
I hope you'll be able to treasure that.
So long as you are alive and keep telling us about the girl, she will keep living in our hearts as well as yours.
There are so many people on this board who love you and the input you give us.
(((((((((((HUGS))))))))) 
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05-01-2008, 06:33 AM
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Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Troy,ny
Posts: 2,799
Weight Statistics Since birth:) Start Date:
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189 lb Current Weight:
150 lb Goal Weight:
130 lb Weight Loss:
39 lb Lb Left to Lose:
40.7523510972 % % Lost:
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30.5020661157 BMI Current:
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Happy birthday Bree! I am sorry you're feeling down and I am sorry for your loss. I know it is hard when you lose something that means so much to you but what if you celebrate her life and not think about what she is going to miss. We are put on this earth for a reason and maybe she "completed her job" here on earth and for her to continue her "life" with you, she should be celebrated. Does that make sense? In my religion, we are told not to cry too hard or wail at the loss of a loved one because that loved one's soul feels all the torture of your sadness and it is no fair to torture that soul. Patience is greatly rewarded. I hope that I am making sense and that in some way I have comforted you. Keep your chin up. I hope that you get all that you wish for.......(((((HUGS)))))
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05-01-2008, 07:20 AM
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Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: North Texas
Posts: 5,236
Weight Statistics I've lost/gained my whole life!!! Start Date:
Aug 1, 2007 Surgery Date:
5' 8"
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280 lb Start Weight:
154 lb Current Weight:
150 lb Goal Weight:
126 lb Weight Loss:
4 lb Lb Left to Lose:
45 % % Lost:
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Body Mass Index42.5692041522 BMI Start:
23.4130622837 BMI Current:
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Happy birthday sweetie...I'm so sorry you are having a hard time....losing my mom 2 years ago, I can kinda relate....I've been in this weird place for months now...and usually, I cover it up pretty good...but somedays, it just hits hard...
Take care of you and keep your head up.....
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05-01-2008, 07:30 AM
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Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: North West, NJ
Posts: 2,707
Weight Statistics 1/14/2008 Surgery Date:
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95 lb Weight Loss:
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Happy Birthday Bree! I'm too new here to know your history - but I do wish you happiness.  | |
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05-01-2008, 08:13 AM
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Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: North Dakota
Posts: 3,521
Weight Statistics June 11,2007, lost 36 Lb. before surgery Start Date:
September 10, 2007 Surgery Date:
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205 lb Current Weight:
180 lb Goal Weight:
168 lb Weight Loss:
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Happy Birthday, and I am so sorry for your loss.
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05-01-2008, 08:41 AM
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Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: LAFAYETTE LA
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Weight Statistics OCT 13,2007 Start Date:
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397 lb Start Weight:
213 lb Current Weight:
170 lb Goal Weight:
184 lb Weight Loss:
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46.3476070529 % % Lost:
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY BREE!   HOPE EVERYTHING GETS BETTER SOON!
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05-01-2008, 09:25 AM
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Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Fullerton, California
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287 lb Current Weight:
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7 lb Weight Loss:
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Happy Birthday Bree!!!!
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05-01-2008, 09:42 AM
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Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Ft. Lauderdale, Florida
Posts: 435
Weight Statistics 8 years old.... Start Date:
April 3, 2007 Surgery Date:
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314 lb Start Weight:
166 lb Current Weight:
130 lb Goal Weight:
148 lb Weight Loss:
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Happy birthday Bree!
Loosing someone is terrible. I lost my father 1 year ago on the 22nd. My 5 year old cried for over 45 minutes last night saying how much he missed PopPop. It is still so fresh.
I know you are in a dark place, but you have to work on changing your thoughts to the possitives - to celebrate her life AND your life. Try to make yourself remember the great things, maybe try to write them down and review them often. For my Dad, instead of a "wake" I had a celebration on life party. I made all his favorites, made recipe cards of those recipes, put them together into little booklets for those who came over, played his favorite music, wore his favorite hat, made a poster with pictures of his life, recalled the great things about him.
Try and talk to a grief counselor - it sounds like you need to take that step.
I wish you luck with the proceedure.
Today is a day for you to celebrate your life!
Lots of love and good thoughts your way!
Jaime
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