HEY EVERYONE
SORRY I HAVENT BEEN AROUND FOR YOU ALL. THANKS FOR MISSING ME. I SAW THE THREAD KENYA HAD STARTED.
ONCE IN A BLUE MOON I MIGHT JUMP ON HERE FOR ABOUT 5 MIN. JUST TO CHECK ON EVERYONE BUT NEVER FEEL UP TO TYPING.
I CANT EVEN BEGIN TO TELL YOU HOW I HAVE BEEN FEELING!!! I HAVE BEEN GETTING VERY SNAPPY AND
DEPRESSED BECAUSE OF THE LACK OF SLEEP I GET!!!!! IM SO UNCOMFORTABLE, UNHAPPY, TIRED AND SO WEAK!!!!! MY MUSCLES HAVE BEEEN FEELING REAL SHAKY AND JUST NO STRENGTH AT ALL. ITS AN EFFORT FOR ME TO JUST TYPE THIS WITHOUT MY HANDS AND ARMS HURTING. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME!!!! I KNOW THE DEPRESSION/ANGER IS HORMONES AND ALSO FROM LACK OF SLEEP BUT IT IS REALLY TAKING OVER ME.
WELL NOV 17TH IS THE DAY I GO IN THE HOSP FOR A SCHEDULED C-SECTION SO I CANT WAIT AND HOPE I JUST SNAP OUT OF THIS WHEN ITS OVER.
I FINALLY FINISHED MY OLDER DAUGHTERS ROOM AND MOVED HER DOWN THE HALL TO THE BIG GIRL ROOM SO THE BABY CAN HAVE HER NURSARY. I WILL DEF HAVE TO TAKE PICS OF THIS RM. I LOVE IT SO MUCH I SOMTIMES FIND MYSELF SITTING IN HER ROOM. IT LOOKS LIKE A PARK. MY DH WANTS TO KILL ME BECAUSE I SPENT SUCH A MINT ON THIS ROOM BUT IT WAS WORTH IT AND I REALLY ENJOYED DOING IT FOR HER. HE DOES ADMIT HE LOVES THE RM AS WELL. AND SHE IS REALLY LOVING HER RM AS WELL.
MY WEIGHT IS NOT REALLY BAD AT ALL. WHEN I STARTED MY PREGO JOURNEY MY WT WAS 144 THEN I WENT DOWN TO 136 AND NOW IM 148. BUT BOY IM ALWAYS HUNGRY AND I CAN SURE EAT WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY YYY MORE THAN I USED TO. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I SURE HOPE THIS WILL CHANGE AFTER I HAVE THE BABY!!!
IM ALSO SCARED TO GO FOR MY SCHEDULED CSECTION BECAUSE I REMEMBER LAST TIME HOW I FELT DURING SURGERY. GOD I FELT SO SICK DURING THE SURGERY AND WHEN THEY NUMBED ME FROM THE CHEST DOWN I STARTED TO FORGET HOW TO BREATHE BECAUSE I COULDNT FEEL MY CHEST WHICH THEY SAY SOMTIMES HAPPENS AND THEY TRY TO GUIDE YOU FROM PANICKING. BETWEEN THAT EXPERIENCE AND THE BAD EXPERIENCES IVE HAD FROM THIS SURGERY IN THE HOSP YOU CANT BLAME ME FOR HAVING ANIEXTY OVER IT NOW. BETWEEN HOSPITALS, DRUGS, AND GETTING SO SICK FROM ALL THE DRUGS AND PAIN, ETC. GOD IM DREDDING IT ALL!
PLUS WE WERE ON VACATION AT SESAME STREET FOR A FEW DAYS WITH SOME FRIENDS. I WILL HAVE TO GET THE PICS DOWN LOADED OUT OF MY CAMERA AND ON HERE FOR YA TO SEE.
I SURE HOPE YOU ARE DOING WELL AND I REALLY MEAN IT WHEN I SAY I PROMISE I WILL BE BACK WITH YOU GUYS ON HERE AS SOON AS I FEEL UP TO IT AND MY LIFE IS NORMAL AGAIN. LOL.
I STILL LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH AND I THING YOU ALL LOOK SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GREAT!!!!!
Im Checking In 
So long as you are putting your best foot forward, then, 
Linear Mode
