[Kenyar]

you would think i would be happy. but i am more in a panic then ever. i start with the wat ifs. what if it is a good job but the pack stinks? what if the hours are no good? what if i am not qualified etc. i know i can never know until i call her back. yet i am still sitting here on the sofa...

this woman left a very detailed message about finding my resume on monster.com. what is wrong with me. i get to dialing the area code, and then i feel the hives start on my neck and then i hang up. why cant i do this???

[SarJen01]

Oh girl, you have got to call her back! I know you're afraid of disappointments. Can you call her back with no expectations? I know you have it in you because I've read tons of your old posts! You can do this! Take deep breath and take a risk!! Go for it!!

[Queenofthenile]

Go Kenya Go!!!! You CAN do this! Believe and you can acheive. Pick up that phone and dial........this pep rally was brought to you today by The Queen

[Kenyar]

LOL!!!!!!! i'm going now. i needed a moment to gather myself.

[LadyLisa]

We all know how hard change is and even for the better it is hard. Let us know what she says..

[Kenyar]

done. it was very quick. there is some background which i left out so let me explain. there is a company whose learning materials are used in my daughters school. (i have been volunterring there a lot lately) it so happends that this company found my resume online at the same time the teacher contacted them ( she apparently has a contact there as she is a grade level leader and in charge of purchsing for the district.) long story short, it was a screening but it is a foot inthe door. i am awaiting a call back regarding the in person interview. it pays VERY WELL and the hours are flexible to a point where getting kayla to and from school and to after care wouldnt be an issue. it would be ideal. fingers crossed. please.

plan B: i found out my mom has a part time job managing an apt complex in sc. she ws offered a 2 br unit (for free) as a benefit of working there. mom owns her own home to the apt is just sitting there. if i do not find work by feb 1 i am going to go to sc and start over.

one of the two has to work out. i have to catch a break. it is seriously wearing on my sanity.

[SarJen01]

Great option in SC (even you you don't like it there). Options are always good. They make you feel less stuck.

I hope you the job here works out! Keep us posted!

[Queenofthenile]

Good luck girl. One of the two has to work out.

[dixieladybug]

You can do it. YOU CAN DO IT>> It might be a great job. Just calling does not mean you have to take the job. Check it out girl... Good luck let us know...

[RaCina]

Whichever happens you seem to be a survivor, more cliches' from me: Good things come to those that wait, When one door closes another opens, okay the best one I have: Everything happens for a reason, I am a true believer of this one though...