Well sence i have last posted I have told my husband how unhappy i am he has begged and begged and told me how he wants to change and cryed and is makeing any disison i make so hard on me.
I have contacted my lower to begin discussing my opptions I truly am thinking now that i just need some time away to get my head together and he is just not understanding.
Today and the days to come im shore are going to be the hardest ones for me But i beleave that GOD is in control of my life and he will gide me in the right direction.
My husband is trying to do better and i honestly see that he is doing better but for the first time im am struggleing with forgiveing and forgeting I dont wanna hert him and it breaks my heart to see him so up set but i cant live a life of pain and misery eather.
so with that sead I thanks all of my wonderful friends at RR for all of your continued support in these very hard times I truly hold you all dearest to my heart. if i did not fird this site i would not be the strong person i am today to start standing up for myself.

thanks i love ya'll