[BOOTS]

DAM IM SO MAD!!!!!!!!!!! I WENT TO TAKE MY DAUGHTER FOR A WALK TODAY IN HER BUGGY AND I HAVE TO VENT TO YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM SOOOO OUT OF SHAPE!!!

I HAD NO ENERGY, I WAS A LITTLE OUT OF BREATH, SWEATING AND FELT LIKE REAL CRAP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLUS ITS DAM HOT OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATED EVERY MINUTE OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DIDNT EVEN LAST THAT LONG I SHOULD OF WALKED WITH HER THRU THE WHOLE COMPLEX AND I DIDNT. BUT A BIG REASON I DIDNT DO THE WHOLE COMPLEX WAS NOT ONLY CAUSE IT WAS HOT AND IM OUT OF SHAPE BUT EVERYTIME A CAR PASSED US I WOULD CRINGE. I HAVE SUCH A COMPLEX ABOUT MYSELF RIGHT NOW I DONT WANT TO BE SEEN. I AM SO ASHAMED. IF I WALK AROUND WITH HER ON OUR PROPERTY I FEEL SO MUCH MORE SAFE EVEN THOUGH A FEW CARS MIGHT DRIVE BY I STILL FEEL SAFER NEAR THE HOUSE CAUSE THEY CANT GET SUCH A CLOSE UP LOOK AT ME AS THEY CAN WHEN IM WALKING IN THE STREET. HOW SICK IS THAT?!?!?!? BUT NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT I DONT LIKE TO BE OUTSIDE WALKING AROUND AT ALL RIGHT NOW. BELIEVE ME IM THE PRO AT FINDING EXCUSES NOT TO MAKE MYSELF BE SEEN.

IM SOOOOOO DISAPPOINTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[rozzy345]

This will get better. I know just how you feel!

Roz

[BOOTS]

Thanks Roz. This Feeling Makes Me Feel So Alone Because Not Even My Husband Knows I Do This To Myself (hiding) BUT I FEEL COMFY TELLING YOU GUYS

[Kenyar]

it will get better. I used to not be able to make it around the block when I first moved here. now I can make it and then some, and i dont get out of breath and nothing hurts. You will get there.

[MsVickie]

One step at a time. Now me ..... I dont care ! LOL. If im hot ....I wear shorts. People are gonna see a new body on me but there not gonna see the inside of me change a bit. So........ tomorrow wait until it cools down, go outside and take at least one more step than you did today. Then the next day another.. mabye a couple more? I have found the hardest person on us is our own self. Your human... your gonna have feelings like this but hold that chin up girly and take that next step.

[cindylouwho]

(((((BOOTS))))) If it makes you feel better I totally wish I was your size!!! I haven't been that size since I was nursing my 13 year old!!!

It will get better! I still feel weird, but not so much so now. I go with my son's little dog and/or one of my kids for moral support. My experience is that people don't mess with Moms as much. (Not always true, but mostly works ) I figure let 'em look, cause soon they'll be saying gee she's lost a lot of weight!