[Exhorter]

Ok so I am getting just a bit nervous now. I want to stay positive and believe that the insurance will say yes but then I begin to think of all the stuff that could go wrong and I get very nervous. I woke up the other day with my head hurting. I thought oh great here I go again sick I am always sick. Something in my body is always hurting me. My back, my head, my feet, my knees, my stomach, diarrhea, and just something all the time. So it makes me start thinking ok is this going to make things worse on me. Will I be one of those who has it hard. I mean I know that nobody knows how it will go. YOu have to just trust God and go for it, but then it does not make things easier.

You know I have been praying for two year now for what seemed could never be. I thought I would never have insurance to have surgery. But now that I do and am waiting I am thinking Oh how I want this sooooo bad and yet inside I feel so at thinking of all that pain. I just want to hear yes your insurance covers and get it over with. I know others have felt this as I have read it. But I just needed to get that off my shoulders and write it down. Thanks for listening.

[DocSanae]

(((((((HUGS))))))))
Come and vent here whenever you need to.
You already know that though the wait is excuciating, once time has passed and you look back, you'll see that what it did was to make you stronger.

Hang in there, your day will come for sure.

[ChuppyGirl]

Exhorter,

WHat you're going through is very normal I had the same mixed feeling before my surgery I was angry with myself and with everyone! I soooooooooo wanted to do the surgery just for revenge and to poke everybody's eye with my weight loss! it was with very vicious intention and once I did it my mind set has changed I want to do it for myself, my health and happiness. I want to do it for my kids and my husband! I tortured the poor guy with all of the hanging fat that I was carrying with me around! that's it!

Hang in there darling all of this will be in the past!

Love,
Hanadi

[akosak]

Exhorter,

I think my biggest worry is the waiting. What is going to happen next. I'm not a very paient person. I one that prays please God give me patients but hurry up! lol I just hate waiting for anyone or anything. It makes me unease. I thought I would got into the the WLS clinic with all my tests done, hand them over an everything would go like clock work, well, it didn't, I have low iron, the phsy. don't like my bi-polor treatment I was on, and it has taken me almost a month just to get my records together from my old doctors. All along I have been worrying about insurance. Will they find some reason to deny me? So, I guess what I am saying is we do all get these feelings we are all control freaks in one way or another about all of this and it is ok!

You vent to me I vent to you we all vent together an we will all be ok!

[Exhorter]

I just want this to happen so badly. I NEED it to happen. I have lost tons of weight on my own. I am strong not tooting my horn here but I am. The only problem is that I can't keep it off. I have gone on a couple of 40 day fast in the past with no problem. I have been on low carb for over two years and lost 100 lbs in about a year, but that last year I was stuck and finally I just got really sick of trying so hard and no results so back to the sweets and old way of life. Dropped out of curves begin to eat the carbs again and just fell off the wagon. I always do this everytime. No matter what diet I am on. So I need this tool to help me. I just want to hear those words you are approved. I know those words are very famous here. They are good as gold. LOL

[akosak]

I so know that! I the diet roller coster! So much fun! this is the tool that will help stop that coster and get us back on the life coster! Can't wait.

[jbarfield]

I feel your pain. Just last week I wrote something similar on another board. Today is the last day of the manadory 3 month diet under the supervision of a Dietician. It seems like it has taken forever and the closer to the end it gets, the more anxious I get. I have stayed very positive up until last week. Sometimes, I feel like I am just holding my breath until I know the insurance is going to cover this. There is no way I can afford it any other way. I too started getting headaches. Everything hurts and it is hard to exercise and I think I just can't stand it anymore; but then I get by another day.

Now my nerve racking part begins; the wait on the insurance decision. I am going forward as though I have a surgery date in about 6 weeks. I am getting my things together and I am going to start on the Zone Diet, which is what my surgeon recommends as a healthy lifestyle eating plan. I am taking all of my vitamins and fish oil and hoping to shrink that liver as much as possible so all will go well.

This is what keeps me going - the planning.

Good luck, keep your head up and stay positive.

[akosak]

Boy you hit the nail on the head. Just go on like you are going to have the surgery and act no other way. I have done that from the day I left the clinic the first time. I got the attitude that if I am going to change my life style it is going to start now. I have and I don't plan on stopping even if God forbid my insurance says no and I can't have the surgery.

I will pray for you and all of us waiting for the surgery date!

[Exhorter]

Thanks all!!

I have done very well up until this last week. It just seems that I can't get it off my mind. I was told by the insurance company they have 30 days to make their decision. Their 30 days are up on May 17 if they don't count weekends in their count. If they do count weekends then it will be up May 5th. So I guess I just wait.

I believe one of the reasons I got this feeling going on so strong of wanting to know is that a minister came to our church this past Sunday and I told them that I was waiting to hear from the insurance company. Now this person is always very positive and has given me great advice in the past and seems to always be right on with the advice. When I told then everything they said well now that is great but you have to understand that the answer might just be NO and if that is the case you will just have to find another way to deal with getting the wait off. I wanted to scream right there and say "YOU DON"T UNDERSTAND I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING!!! nothing is working for me!!!

You know I just do not see h ow they could turn me down but I read all the time that it does not matter how big you are or how much you weigh sometimes they will just turn people down. I want to stay possitive but I am just getting so nervous. I truly feel I just don't think I could stand to here the words NO. I guess I am a control freak and when I have to wait on things it is hard. The thing is I have done so good up until lately. I have only called the dr office a few times and that was just to get info about info they needed me to submit. Usually I would have been on the phone daily with them asking questions and just finding things to ask. But I had left it in God's hands and said ok God your will. But now I am starting to freak out. LOL I guess I had better put it back into his hands again. BEcasue all this stuff is making me crazy. LOL Thanks again for listening.