I love hearing all the comments from thinner people who have never battled a real weight problem. I wish I only struggled with 10 or 20 lbs throughout my life LOL. I just got a reprieve in the balance of the office. We had a new lady start. From the moment I met her, I loved her personality. Bubbly, friendly, and full of questions. We were talking this morning and I saw her drinking a SF red bull. I mentioned how I missed them (and boy do I) and explained how I just had the bypass done 7...

So my mom decides to celebrate my brother's and husband's B-days at a new Italian restaurant after our first pick (mexican) was closed for a private function. Don't get me wrong. I like Italian food. It's what got me here to begin with. Can we say pasta freak?!? I have been avoiding it like the plague. Well, after almost a half hour I decided to have what I always seem to have now - fish. I am flippin' fished out, ok? At least at the mexican restaurant I would have had a choice of softer...

but I guess that is what this is turning into now. I thought I would just write once in a while, but I feel so much better each day when I get my feelings out on here. It won't be too long of a post since there is just not much rambling going on in my head.

I am still concerned about BC issues. DH and I have decided to use a nonoxynol-9 (sp?) based contraceptive in tandem with the NuvaRing. I still have fears of "what if it is not enough?"

Weight loss...

The emotional one, of course. Little things send me almost into a depression lately. It doesn't help when the new group they formed to be the new department I now work in (in which I am the only pre-existing member) leaves me out. Sounds petty, but one of the new people in the group brought in gifts for everyone on the team - except me. I am temporarily isoated from the seating arrangement they are in because of all the changes. I am still in my desk, but the new group is in the complete...

I have been back to the gym doing cardio on the eliptical for the last week, and knew that I was allowed to restart light weight training today, but I went ahead a day early. My husband and brother have been whining all week that they did not want to work out their legs (which was always my favorite to do) and they finally got to doing them yesterday. Little background on my little bro and I - we are/were both power lifters. My brother even competed at the national level while in HS. In his...