Dear body,
I am writing this letter as an apology to you and as a thank you.
I am sorry for all the torture that I have put you through over the years. You have been nothing but good to me and yet the thing I was supposed to fuel you with was the thing I put you through hell with although at the time I didn't know it. I am sorry for not appreciating you more and taking better care of you. At the time I thought that the food I was "stuffing" in you was making it better for you but in all actuality, I was being selfish. I was stuffing my feelings and the hurt in my life that I could not control in any other way except to shove food into you to fill a void that should have been taken care of in another way. I am sorry that you have suffered relentlessly from my foolish ways causing you to have pain, giving you diseases that were brought on by lifestyle choices not because you were rebelling against me.
Now for my thank you.....THANK YOU for holding me up all these years even though you were screaming on the inside. Thank you for "holding" my battle wounds reminding me of the birth of my four beautiful children. Thank you for allowing me to be mobile when so many others are immobile not by their choice. Thank you for protecting me and giving me "shelter" from everything that has tried to invade you keeping me pretty healthy if it weren't for my own self medicating. To my feet, thank you for enduring all of my weight and carrying me where I needed to go.
Finally I will be blessing you with a second chance at life and at relief that you so deserve. You have allowed me to finally come to peace with myself and the choice that I have made to have a new lease on life.
This letter was just a venue to allow me to vent and remember where I came from and where I am going. Thanks for reading my ramblings.....