[beckamarie]

Kath you know you and I have the same issues, I got down to 120 and was told I looked sick, I gained up to 130 and it messed with my mind so bad, now at 125 I am ok. This is def not easy even 2 yrs out

[wannabe skinny]

{{{{becka}}}} so good to see you on the boards ~ how are you doing??

[DocSanae]

I am moving this to Personal Thoughts and sticking it there. (Thought of moving it to WLS Graduates, but figured that this is something everyone should read.)
Now, when you are reading this thread, I sure hope everyone will go through EVERY SINGLE POST posted here, however much time it takes.

[ksummer19]

Doc....honestly what would we do w/o you?? You are the best.

[cfnll]

I am having similar thoughts. I was at 146 and have gained 10 pounds and I am feeling like I am failing . People are telling me I am too skinny, but I see the fat. I know it takes a while for you to mentally catchup with the physical changes. I have gone from 2x to a size 8, so I know in my head I am not fat, but I still see the fat. I am told I am obsessed about my weight and I am. But I have come to the conclusion it is the fear of the weight creeping back up if I don't keep a handle on it. I am 18 months out and I feel as if I need direction on actual food to follow and how much.My doctor says never more then 1/2 cup at each meal, but when I do that I want to each within a couple of hours. I know some of this is mental issues with food, but how do you get pass this.

[MsVickie]

Honey this post is over a year old now. But it dont matter. Its just to get a hold of the issue and deal with it. I dont know if you were allowed snacks or not but use the healthy snacks when you get that feeling. Water is a good useful tool also. It does get harder the further you get out. Im with you honey im three years out myself and no I dont feel like a failure what so ever. The lowest I got was 151 however I felt horrible and was told buy my PCP to gain weight. I was physically sick.

I maintain my weight now at 171. I float up a couple or down a couple but around that number. Just think about it when you go to fix your food or order somthing and remember your eating to live not the other way around. I hope this helps some.

[not quite Barbie]

Originally Posted by not quite Barbie

I know! It's so weird, I'll look in the mirror and see all the bones showing and know that I'm really to thin, yet part of me still thinks I'm fat. I was stressing out about a family matter a few weeks ago (not worth getting into the details) and dropped 4 pounds! Yikes. I had been holding the line at 130 since December and suddenly I'm down to 126. But I still feel fat most days.

It's kind of scarry because I worry that I'm going to go anorexic or something. I'm still eating 6 meals a day, and Yes Vicki I take all my vitamins and supplements. But I'm so afraid that I'm going ot get too thin because I can't get my head to grasp how thin I already am. I look down at myself and see wide hips and fat legs, but I'm in a 6! How can I not see? Sooooo weird.

Thanks for resurfacing this thread. So, at 1.5 years later it was good for me to see what I was thinking and feeling back then. I did end up losing a few more pounds but have been holding the line between 122 and 125. In a size 4 now, sometimes a 2. And I STILL CAN'T SEE HOW THIN I AM! But, at least now I believe it when my brain says "yes dear, you really do wear a small, now put the medium back on the shelf".

I'm not sure you ever adjust to your new image, at least it doesn't seem to be happening for me, but I no longer fear that I'm going to go too far. Still fear that if I'm not cautious I'll gain it all back but I'm hanging on to this fear so I WILL stay on guard.

[Trulykath]

People still tell me to this day I'm a "tiny little thing"....I'm still wearing 4's & 6's....some are a little more snug than they used to be.....still skin issues and surgery is put off indefinitely (unless hubby wins the lottery LOL)....good to see some old familiar faces here!!!

[not quite Barbie]

Originally Posted by not quite Barbie

But, at least now I believe it when my brain says "yes dear, you really do wear a small, now put the medium back on the shelf".

OK, I lied. I ordered a new winter coat from Land's End in a size small. Then got to worrying it would be too small and ordered a medium. Now I have to send the medium back. LOL what am I going to do with myself.

HI KATH! We miss you!

[redhead]

Thanks to all for this great thread. It's definately a head game at this stage. I too fear that I will fail and gain the weight back. I will NOT weigh daily as I can't obsess ever again. I WILL weigh weekly, stick to my program and maintain a healthy life style. Some days I look in the mirror and a very attractive thin woman looks back at me, other times I too feel fat. I remind myself how far I have come and then my pouch reminds me too. I gave away most of my clothes, kept one or two things to remind myself and they look huge, but of course I never felt huge. Actually they are really big for someone who is only 5 plus maybe. I always took pride in how I dressed, but now it's fun. Everyone around me tells me how thin I am and my daughter who hadn't seen me since August and saw me at Thanksgiving told me I'm "tiny". I saw a family photo we took at Thanksgiving and I am tiny.