My birthday is coming up May 1st...and it's wild to think that I'm going to be 48!!! yes, I'm nearly 50 people!!! and no PS of any kind...well unless you 'count' that right eye that basically had a eye lift due to a skin graft for lower lid basal cell carcinoma over 17 yrs ago. LOL!
When I had the surgery I wanted so bad to have it on my birthday or as close as possible to my 40th. But the surgeon was totally booked for those dates of that week.
So...my RE-birthday is may 17th if I remember it all right. I found an OLD medical bracelet that actually had the dates on it, most of the ones I have now all say 5/2002
It's so odd to think that at 8 yrs out here I am with surgery again feeling like a newbie-post op again! My pouch is still the 1 ounce size, verified by the 3.5 weeks? ago endoscopy and X-rays, plus my stoma is NOT as large as previously I was told nearly 3 yrs ago with a swallow test and endoscopy. Staple line? Intact..Colonscopy healthy up the behind!
That's a relief actually with my history of some serious things in my life!
I feel, very seriously now..that I've been given a chance to kind of start over and its my job to learn from the past 8 yrs and make positive changes and work on myself to love ME for ME..no matter where I'm at body size.
I never wanted to be super skinny..but yes, I got there too with tough hard workouts I got very very small. But liked being there? I didn't like the attention to be frank. Look at my before pictures and you'll get it that I didn't have any CLUE what I'd look like after I lost all the weight and beyond. (note: My 'after' pic is not even at my lowest weight, it's at the most healthy weight)
I prefer healthy, strong body to being 'skinny'..but that's MY vision of beauty and for what I was training for.
But as with everything, my life has become a journey to finding a new focus in my life and new goals. Right now? The goal is to learn..yes LEARN to --relax-- and what that means for ME. To just enjoy the day and to be respectful towards myself and to work on strengthening even deeper my relationship with God. THAT means more to me than anything and I thank Him for leading me to the right surgeon, the right timing on everything. Thanks to HIM I'm still here!!
My birthday and RE-Birthday are both coming up! 
So long as you are putting your best foot forward, then, 
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