[Kenyar]

I was just thinking the other day. Now that I am post op, I am relaxing a bit more, writing in a diary and thinking things thru. This whole experience isnt just about food. It's truly challenging mentally and emotionally.

Pre-op i ate anything and everything in site just because ( so i thought)
Post-op I cant really eat that much, so i FEEL everything; every emotion. I would have never pegged myself as an emotional eater. But i am learning so much about myself thru this experience. I learned about my tolerance for pain. Courage. Patience.

My tastes have also changed dramatically. I dont crave fast food nor can i stand the smell of it cooking. I dont even want to look at a chip, or a cookie. i actually crave chicken, beef and fish which is wierd. i eat eggs with tabasco sauce which i never did before. and water; i NEVER drank water before EVER. Now it's the first thing i reach for. AM i nuts?? Did they reprogram my brain too when i was under??

I was just curious if anyone else experienced changes or seen changes in themselves mentally as a result of the surgery?

[DocSanae]

This is a journey in search of your soul.
The changes in taste are somewhat temporary. Further out, you will be able to palate some things you can't stand now. Your taste will be changing constantly as your weightloss progresses.
((((((((HUGS))))))))) May your journey go well.

[fr1endly2]

YES all your going thru is sooo normal.
MY first year was a very emotional time...
joyous moments one second weeping crying moments
the next.
I was very smell sensitive and many things made me nausaus
just to smell. THESE phases pass over time and you stabilize back
to your normal self im seeing that now that im near my 2 year mark.
SO enjoy this pickiness, i know i was never a picky eater till post
op.

ITs still a great journey and i too have learned alot about when i eat ....
but most of all i have learned my TRIGGERS too! besides the emotional eating certain foods do bring on that unconrollable eating binges....so i work on those alot now.
HUGS!

[A new me]

Kenyar,

I was just telling someone here at work the same thing. Its wierd. I too am always looking for water to drink. I was always a diet coke or diet pepsi person, never water. And me too the smells of cooking just make me feel yuck. My sense of smell is very keen lately. I will tell my family, who just ate garlic or something like that. And I too want protein. not the junk stuff. So like you, I was thinking did they re-program me while I was udner.

[BreeChick]

Yeppers hon...and you know what I found ??

IT FEELS GOOD TO FEEL MY FEELINGS INSTEAD OF STUFFING THEM DOWN WITH FOOD!!!!

In fact in some ways it's very freeing. I too have found in the past several years that my cravings are very different than before. It's very interestings isn't it?
--bree

[Kat]

Me too. I even had a dream about pinapple the other night. I never disliked it prior to WLS but I really like it now, as well as enjoying fruit and even veggies more then I used to.
As far as no longer stuffing feelings with food- let's just say things that I thought didn't bother me have more effect then I had thought. I am learning about how I think without the cloak of food covering feelings up. Very interesting and still unfolding.