[Robbin]

I have come back from a long time away and I hope to I get the chance to know all of you that have come to the forums since my ins and outs.

My mother who had been sick for so long died one day before her birthday on May 6th. She had been battleing Diabetes and her kidneys failed to the point that she fianlly decided to go on Dialysys. She was doing so well and then she fell and a few days later she was gone., just like that.
I am lost without her. BUT I know I can come into this site and find all of you.
My thoughts need to go back to me, in a selfish way but only to get back to losing what is left of this weight.
I left my job in early March and my time was spent alot with Mom and the time just flew by and before long June is here and it too almost gone and my weight issues have suffered. I have not been walking and have not been watching my intakes very well and now I need to focus and get back on track. I find myself picking way too much, especially at night.
Today as I was grocery shopping I found some new ideas and hope to get through the rest of this week keeping a journal and to keep a liquid/soft food diet. Start over in a sense. I got some recipes made tonight and got the blender back out and hope to stick to this.
AND WALK!!!!!!!

As I too start all over again I hope that I can keep my head up and keep my Mothers thoughts in my head. She was so very proud of me for losing this weight. She didn't even know me one day coming up the hall to take her shopping. We just giggled....

She lost 70 pounds in 4 weeks and although her weight loss was mostly fluids from her congestive heart failure and then from the dialysys treatments. She felt soo much better for a little bit of time. Just getting in and out of her bed was so much easier.
She worried so for me and did not want me to have to deal with this terrible desease. Diabetes is the one of the worst of the worst. Another good reason to be glad to have this chance to get healthy and live longer and have more energy and all of those good reasons.
I will be a Grandma again in a few weeks , one more reason for me to get back on track. Ella Rose will be a good helper. She cannot wait.
I sure do miss my Mommy. I want her back.....


Thank you all again and I hope that I can get back to being a true loser again!!!! LOL

Hugs and love to all of you...ROBBIN

[fr1endly2]

((((HUG)))))) ROBBIN!
welcome back ...
and belated condolances to you thru a very difficult time!!!!!

i look forward to seeing you around again!!!!!
WERE here for all your support needs!

[not quite Barbie]

Robbin,
I'm so sorry for your loss, but I know you will forever cherish this time that you were able to spend with your mother. I too lost my mother and was able to be with her in her last week of life and I'm so glad I did. You will get past most of the pain eventually - focusing on the good times is what helps.

[DocSanae]

((((((HUGS)))))))
Robbin, I am sure your mother is always by you and watching over you. And, she'll come back in that new grandchild of yours. Cherish the child as you cherished your mother, and she will keep on living within you.
She is free from the body that with its disabilities was a cage for her, and she is free from pain and despair. I am sure she will want you happy and healthy, and your happiness is what will keep her at peace.
((((((HUGS)))))

[Exhorter]

God Bless you sweetheart and I know God will help you get back on the right path with your eating and exercise. He is faithful and always helps us. I have said a prayer for you that you will have strenght to move forward and before you know it hold that precious little one in your arms.

[reducing bren]

Robbin, I am so sorry for your loss and am glad that you have come back to the site. We can comfort you in some ways and in others the comfort will come through time.

Hugs,

[rozzy345]

Sorry for your loss, just remember how proud your mom was of you and you will be able to get back on track. She is still watching.

Roz

[akosak]

Robin,
So sorry for your loss. I too lost my grandmother to complication of Diabetes. She did not take care of it and caused heart failure. By the time we realized what was going on, she was past the point anything could be done. I did get to spend several months with her before she left us and it is the most special time of my life.

She always believed in me and knew that there was something special about me.

I know your mom i proud of you and knows you are working hard.

[BreeChick]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss and many {{{hugs}}} for you. Your momma will always be with you though..in your heart and head and most of all in spirit...Never apart, you know?

We're here for you getting back on track and I SO hear you on that one!

---Bree

[Robbin]

Thank you, and I know my Mom is with me.
Thank you again, now to get back on track and lose more of this weight.
I know My mother would want that.
So far today...OK!!!! hehehe

Thanks again to all of you...I am so glad to have this website.....

ROBBIN