I joined the century club this week! I've been quiet about it for the most part...mostly because I'm afraid it won't stay that way.
Thank the lord for selective memories... I want to say this road has been easy- Really?? In terms of struggling with yet another "diet plan" and the downs and UPS of that situation, this is easier on my emotions because it feels permanent in many ways. In terms of the process and understanding (ongoing) how this all works, not easy. It's going to be with me forever and I constantly remind myself... "self...just because you're near goal and are thinner then you've been in 20+ years, no you may NOT indulge in a double cheeseburger and fries from McDonalds!". Maybe someday on a very very special occasion that is a thought, probably won't give me the weird satisfaction I'm looking for anyway.
Speaking of satisfaction... That's another strange sensation I'm dealing with.. Food doesn't satisfy like it used to, and it's somewhat disturbing for me. Much like a "cutter" might feel a release at cutting, I don't get that same feling I used to when eating a favorite food. I suppose that's a good thing, but a disappointment.
I literally wouldn't be where I am in my head and my body if not for this board. This journey simply can't be done without the support and expertise of you all here.
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