well it's odd timing...I think that over the past 3 years ..well no that would be i KNOW I'm still dealing with major PTSD issues so I respond to the pain of loss and mourning in twisted ways.
I had gotten the email last night at work..about one of my officers who's at home dying of cancer stage 4+..his wife has to leave PD also because of medical issues/disability ...their daughter committed suicide while the wife went to pick up the daughter's little girl..came home and found her..I'm sure there will quite a showing of PD for this funeral..they've already been preparing for his upcoming funeral.
I think that somehow..I had to do something anything..and it was also an impetous to just DO what I'd been thinking about for a long time.
Time is so short and people choose to end it so suddenly ...what inner pain she must have been in I can't begin to understand.
It's just what I've said for a long time now....LIFE steps in whether you want it to or not and FOOD is not how you deal with it anymore. Feel the pain, mourn, live and find happiness where you can...start within YOURSELF first!!