What you are feeling, Bev, is perfectly normal. We all want the benefits of the surgery, but actually going through the hospital stage can be scary. Ask your surgeon about his or her success rate. If they dodge the question, you should be running out the door!! Any reputable doc will be glad to tell you.
Read everything you can on this board, especially in the forums for preparing for gastric bypass surgery. The operation really isn't all that bad, but the blessings in your life will blow your mind once you reach that stage!! It's the best thing I've ever done for my health. I've done so well that my wife had her RNY about 4 months ago, and she's doing just fine, too.
Good luck! Remember, knowledge is power!! Do your research and know what you're going to experience and it won't be nearly as frightening.
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