Hello Jeff from Rhode Island!
I am from Colorado...worlds away! But I am sure our struggle is much the same. I had my surgery on August 30th. I am currently at 72 lbs lost. I feel sooo much better. I have to tell you that when I am at the grocery store I do something a bit odd...and people probably see but I don't care! I grab 10 lb bags of potatoes in the amount I have lost so I can "feel" it. I can see progress on my body but it is different to actually pick it up. Can you imagine picking up 4 10 lb bags of potatoes and carrying them around all day, every day? Think the of the strain on your knees alone!
I have been "thin" most of my life but have struggled with weight loss issues or I don't know how to say it but I have struggled with this stuff since high school. I was always very athletic and became beyond sedentary. But now I can easily walk 3 miles on my treadmill. I pop up stairs like they are nothing were I dreaded them before (and I live in a 2 story house!!).
You have gotten over the hump (with the surgery) and the rest will come with just doing the right things and getting moving. You will feel so much better.
In 30 days I will be doing something I have always wanted to do....zip line! I always felt too huge to do it. I might have been able to but just felt too big to do it. But, I am gonna do it and no one is gonna stop me! I am going to fly!
You should make yourself a goal that you want to do or something that you have always wanted to do. And then get yourself in a position to do it. In July there is a 5k with an obstacle course that I am doing with a friend. I cannot quite run yet but I am starting to get close. But I will post that photo of me and the finish line sometime in July!
Rememeber at the very least, the absolute minimum you are healthier! You have taken over 40 lbs of strain off your heart and off your joints. I certainly don't know everything and there are some darn wonderful people on here. I feel lucky to have found them. And every one of us have had those darn demons on our back. But every pound we lose, every goal we make, every dream we achieve those darn demons slide off and can't hold on to us forever! You and I and the newer people on here take comfort in the people that have kept the weight off and there is long term success for us. We only have to embrace the journey.